cornflake dreams.: life lately and welcoming 2016.

12.31.2015

life lately and welcoming 2016.

Despite all the pretty Charleston pictures, life has been tough lately. As many of you already know from my posts on Instagram I spent last weekend in the hospital for another Crohn's flare (Crohn's is a chronic inflammatory bowel disease, I was diagnosed in 2013)

Last Friday I woke up with severe abdominal pains so I went to the hospital. A few hours later an MRI test showed that I had small tears in my large intestine. The doctors put me on antibiotics and steroids and kept me in the hospital to make sure I didn't need surgery. I was devastated to spend my first night away from Violet in a hospital and even more upset that I had to abruptly quit breastfeeding because of all of the new medications. Poor H had to navigate the world of formula feeding alone -- with a baby who had no idea what to do with a bottle. It wasn't pretty. But after a few days of spoon feeding Violet formula, we found something that worked. Violet now drinks from a little cup (she still doesn't want anything to do with a bottle or sippy cup). She's eating and she's happy and that's all that matters.

Between stomach cramps, a temporary low-fiber diet, tons of new medications, and dealing with engorgement and trying to "dry up" after abruptly stopping breastfeeding-- I'm tired.
And I'm ready for the new year.

But I'm also really thankful for everything that 2015 has brought me. This year we had a baby (!!!) bought a house, spent time with friends and family, and had a lot of fun. The year didn't end how I wanted it to, but it really reinforced what's important to me in my life. So I wanted to make sure my goals for the new year reflected those things:

1. Focus on family. More walks + quality time together.
2. Yoga. Everytime I do it I feel good, so I need to make it happen more often.
3. As for the blog -- I still love it but I want to simplify things and make it a little more enjoyable. That means no more crappy sponsored posts. While I'd still like to partner with companies I love -- I'm going to be a LOT more selective. I really don't need the money or the stress. 
4. Slow down and write down one good thing from the day, everyday.

I hope you have a Happy (and safe!) New Years!
-xo-
Jillian

20 comments:

  1. Love the idea of writing down one good thing from the day and focusing on the positive! Hope you are feeling back to your normal self soon and have a great New Years!

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  2. I'm so sorry the last few weeks have been tough for you - hoping for great health for you and your family in 2016! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  3. Hope you’re feeling better friend! So sorry for the struggles, but hang in there and wishing you the best in 2016!

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  4. oh girl, i am so sorry. i really hope 2016 is better for you, especially with no hospital stays.

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  5. Oh my goodness. I'm so sorry and hope you feel better really soon. My heart goes out to you drying out is never fun and so painful. Hang in there. You're in my thoughts xoxox

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  6. On a positive note, 2016 can only go up from here! I am looking forward to getting back into blogging in 2016 (I am Christina from Summer.Year.Round.. I was looking through my old posts and saw you did a guest post for me back in 2011.. back with a new blog, new city, new everything!) Happy New Year!!

    Christina :: Simple and Delish

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  7. Oh man Jillian, I'm so sorry! Sounds like you're handling everything as best as anyone could! Prayers that 2016 starts on a great note for you and your sweet little baby!

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  8. I'm so sorry that you've had a rough few weeks. You're always so positive on the blog, I had no idea you were having troubles. I hope 2016 brings better health and a great year for you and your family!

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  9. :( hope you're starting to feel better. Switching to formula is never easy, but glad she's eating. Keep trying the bottle it took Emerson about 3 weeks of trying before she took to it. We also found that she liked the Avent Natural bottles best. Oh and we use Honest Formula.

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  10. Oh lady, I'm sorry these last days of the year were so difficult and draining. To a happy, healthy start to the new year, and all the days after!

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  11. So sorry you've gone through so much! I can relate to the no bottle- Gabriel never took one and it's hard. But I'm so happy you found something that works for Violet! Also, love your resolutions- wishing you lots of love and peace in the new year! xo!

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  12. Besides the crappy ending, it was such a great year for you guys! So glad you're on your way to feeling better again and I know 2016 is going to be awesome. Happy New Year!

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  13. Oh man what a rough ending to 2015 you had! I hope 2016 is a great year for you and your family!

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  14. although it wasn't the best at the end (i can't even imagine) i'm glad it's heading towards a god new year. my heart broke when i saw your pics on insta! i hope you are feeling better and glad V is too!

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  15. So glad you are feeling better! And yay that she's eating! I love your goals for the new year. A simplified blog sounds fantastic! I don't do a lot of sponsored posts but when I do they are stressful! Just do you friend! :)

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  16. I'm so sorry you had to go through that! But I'm so glad to hear you're all better now and Baby V is happy and eating :)
    Your blog goal is very similar to mine - and I think it's a good one to stick to!
    Happy new year, girl! XOXO
    www.fashiontruffles.com

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  17. I have been thinking about you so much and keeping you in my prayers. I hope you are on the mend and having relief now! You are one super strong, Mama!

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  18. Great resolutions! Happy 2016 lady!

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